Archive for April, 2008

Apathy or Indifference? Both?

Friday, April 25th, 2008
Well, some people can live in apathy as if it was virtue.
Especially at their work place.


I personally think they’re just there to idle their time away.

Waste their lives away.
You must have seen one or two lurking around in your office too.
Or even at the shops or fast food outlets.
Going through the motions, expressionless.
Even if they see that there’s something wrong with a certain issue, they will just be blind to it.
A case of "act blur, think smart"?
Lacking enthusiasm for or interest in things, especially at work.
Makes you just want to "menempeleng" them, right?

Their favourite phrase, "Oh, I don’t know".

What do they actually know then?
Having hands on for such a long time and you still "don’t know" ??
Is this plain dumb or pure apathy?
Perhaps, lack of common sense and brains, I should say.

And, there are some people who are so fond of saying say "I don’t care".

It just shows how individualistic they are.
Couldn’t care less about anything or anyone except themselves.
If you don’t care at all, why do you care to come to work?
Why do you care getting on people’s nerves?
And why do you care making life difficult for other people who are just trying to work?
Jangan disebabkan nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga.
If you don’t want to be part of the team, go find a solitary type of job where you won’t be needed to contribute your 2cents worth of team work and continue dwelling in your petty issues and continue thinking that the whole world owes you a favour.

Well, if you just work to get your pay at the end of the month, or if you work because no one else wants to finance your expenses, then you’d better buzz off and go work at a place where you’ll just be a pretty face (if you have one) with basically nothing to do except tasks which do not involve using some brain and common sense.

And stop using that, "I don’t know"  or "I don’t care" phrase in front of me before I slap some horse sense into your empty head.

If you’d only open your eyes a bit bigger and keep your mouth shut a little bit more, then you’ll be a better comrade.

If you want to live your life in a dream, in apathy and in indifference, my advice to you - STOP LIVING COMPLETELY

P/S—>> Beware… Some people are so fake that they smile at you and talk to you nicely. Yet, behind you, daggers and knives are already embedded in your back. "Smiling tigers", as we call them. And they are the "kacang lupakan kulit" type - totally forget or ignore your good deeds / kindness towards them. Only remembering the times you’ve said "no" to them, or  the times you ‘rejected’ their requests by dumping you into the "freezer" and trying to ruin your life & career.

Don’t think that you can bully me just because I am keeping quiet and not doing anything at all. I just don’t want to make things ugly.
But if you continue with your ways, just bear in mind that "what goes around, comes around". I may not even need to lift a finger or fret about it. The time will come, and let’s see who’ll have the last laugh.

Anything wrong with it? Or is there something wrong with me??

Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
Someone commented: "You’re having lunch alone again today?"
Well, yes. Why not?
Nothing out of the ordinary; I always do that.
No big deal.
Actually, I kinda enjoy doing that - go anywhere that I please, eat anything that I fancy.
Come and go as I like, without the need to wait for anyone to finish their meals at the hot & stuffy coffeeshops.
Or listen to some incessant and senseless banter which I hardly have any interest in cause I’d be too impatient to get out of those stuffy places.
And I don’t seem to talk as much nowadays.
Well, I enjoy being with my friends, but with colleagues, it’s another story.
I can’t say that I don’t get along with them, but I can’t say that I’m close to many of them either.
Maybe a few of them, but others are simply ‘mere acquaintances’, if I may put it that way.
We don’t hang out after work; I can’t wait to get out of the office after work!
And we seldom talk about other things except work-related stuffs, or people related to our work.
DL used to call me ‘anti-social’. I like talking with her :) She’s fun.
Hehe….
But she’s in Prai now… :(
However, I like being in the company of my ex-colleagues.
Sometimes, wed meet for lunch on Saturday, yumcha in the evening or  have breakfast on Sunday.
But why does it seem like a chore to even go for dinner after work with my current colleagues which happens less than 5 times a year?

I don’t seem to want to open up to them and I don’t ask too much questions about their lives outside the office…

I seem to be building a barrier around me.
Perhaps it’s really my problem, not them.
Hmmm….